I hope I'm not afraid of heights...

Hello Cats and Kittens-

So it's been quite a while... Here's to anyone that still reads these... (Hello Sami and Jess... oh and Ritz)...


Well school is finally over, and thus the worst time in my life is over. I have never sunk like I did this last quarter. Most of you really had no idea the extent to which I've failed. Why? Because I've hidden it from you. There are really only a couple people that know some of the bits and pieces. I'm not proud of what I've done and how I've acted. Suffice it to say I have learned a lot about myself and what I want/need in the last several weeks. I hope to never repeat this part in my life.

In other news today I went to Danna's wedding. The ceremony was nice and the reception was a ton of fun do to the people I partied with... The evening came to a halt as I turned onto campus and looked up to see flashing police lights behind me. I was "caught" doing 56 in a 45 on Wabash. (You know, where EVERYONE goes at least 60?)... So I get my license and attempt to find Bander's registration, as he is more than shithoused in the backseat of his car and I was DD'ing... So it took us at least 10 mins to locate said registration... And in the process Bander is ID'ed for being drunk and the cop has asked how much I have had to drink (less than half a shot a long time before driving and after a LOT of dancing which means I had basically metabolized it) and how old Brittany McGowan (our other passenger) was and how much she had had to drink (nothing). So the cop went to check on the vehicle and my driving record... He comes back and breathalyzes Brittany and myself and gives me a warning... First time for both Brittany and myself... It was special...

Bander has not faired the evening well... he's had a love-hate relationship with his bathroom the whole night...

I went to the bars with Sarah and Mags last night for Jeff's 21st... I had a TOTAL BLAST! Honestly it was one of my most fun bar nights... Also it was kinda sad that I got pretty drunk on two Long Islands... Although it makes for a cheaper evening! *DING!*

Sometimes I think I am completely insane... Well maybe not completely, but yeah...

I wish I could stop thinking about boys... It would make life so much easier.

I have a LOT to accomplish before July 7th. Here's to total lifestyle changes.

Also a thousand points to Mags for remembering where I had drunkenly strewn my purse last night. I was definitely freaking out today...

A word to the wise for all of you... If you're moving a bed on campus (that is the school-provided beds) exercise some caution. If the metal bed frame comes crashing down onto the bridge of your foot, it hurts like a bitch! A cranky, PMS'ing, crazy bitch. I think I might have broken something. There are two silver-linings. First, I was drunk at the time, and thus the pain was not as intense as it could have been. Two, I will have fun watching it turn various disgusting colors. (It's the scientist in me I guess.)

So before I came to college, I was a really guarded person, especially with physical interaction. I don't even mean the scandalous kind, even just hugging or having your arm around my shoulders, etc. Just like a lot of other things, that changed a lot when I came to Rose. I just was able to open myself up and became a fairly affectionate person. It's weird how much you can miss that interaction when it's gone. I miss being held. I can't believe how strong the ache is for that simple act.

I wish things would go my way for once...

Parts of Danna's wedding/reception really made me think and obviously be a bit emo. I really wish I could turn off my brain or even just my heart sometimes.

Are my suspicions true? I hope they are...

With love and a smile,
K 2 the AREN

My Anecdote: "These are for display only!" ~Me to a drunken Jeffy and several other boys at the bar...